She followed him to sit down, feeling much more secure with her back to the wall. Feeling so small and vulnerable was so uncomfortable. She didn't want to cling to him, but at the same time, she did. Just being next to him would suffice for now, though. At his question, she let out a shaky sigh.

"No. Maybe. I... I dunno. It's just..." She looks at him, almost searching for affirmation that this is even okay. She doesn't do this. Talk about things. She just handles them and moves on. But she's just bursting with fears and feelings and things she has no idea what to do with, half of which are directly related to even being near him and the other half distracting her from even enjoying their time together like she usually does.

"Last year. With Crowley. Cas..." She trailed off and looked down again. "It was worse than any of the rest of it."