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[celestial_wizard]

Who: Natsu and Lucy
What: Lots and lots and lots of awkward.
When: After the event is over [ s-so backdated ]
Where: Lucy's room back at the castle
Rating: L for a Lucy, a Little Violence and a Lot OF Yelling.

[ Normally, Lucy's routine was to get up early, have a bath, meditate a little and meet Natsu for breakfast. By meet that was usually -walk out of the bathroom and find him there. Because he had been in the bed too.

Today however, she was sleeping a bit deeper, less willing to wake, feeling herself wrapped in a blanket of warm and safe aura. She didn't know what it was, she didn't care, she just snuggles closer to the warmth she felt, murmuring softly. Dun wanna wake uuuuup. ]

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[eatsfire]

That was just an accident! [Well, no, he distinctly remembers wanting to hold her in his arms and being very content to do that even just this morning, but still!]

W-Wha... Lucy! [He's scrambling out of the bed now, getting caught in the bed sheets and thump he lands unceremoniously on the ground.

But he hardly seems to notice, standing quickly afterward and trying to follow after her]

Hey, what'd I say? Don't be so mad at me! [Natsu's voice has grown quieter, though for him that's still louder than a normal person would be]

[celestial_wizard]

[ An accident. Okay fine, she'll buy it was an accident. That's understandable, after all it's not like Natsu would ever do something like that intentionally. Hell, it's not like... she /wanted/ him to. ]

What the hell is wrong with me. What am I even thinking?

[ Just... focus on something else. It figures it's easy for Natsu to forget everything, he's so dense. Why take it so personally? But she does. She doesn't even say anything to Natsu, still giving him the cold shoulder. Be strong Lucy, don't give in to that guy! ]

[eatsfire]

[He doesn't catch the words, but his first instinct is to be wary that she's still angry. An angry Lucy could be like Erza, and he really doesn't want that wrath directed at him, not one bit]

Oi... Lucy? [He comes up behind her, peering from the left side and then the right side, trying to see her face]

I dunno what to say or do, okay? I just don't want you to be mad at me. [Should he apologize? Should he... what? This isn't like Gray where he can just start a brawl and get over any fight they may have had. This is totally different territory]

[celestial_wizard]

[ She tenses from head to toe. After having memories where they were so close, she was a wee bit hypersensitive to his presence. Each time he leans, she turns in the opposite direction, not wanting him to see her face.

She hated being angry with him. Even now the urge to just... lean back and forgive everything he ever did was strong, but it just reminded her... She swallows back a lump in her throat, trying to keep a bit of a quiver out of her voice. Stop...that. Just... go away, go away go away or else... ]

Just go away, Natsu.

[ She just... couldn't. She couldn't be near him, not right now. Not when she was trembling a little, fighting the urge to turn hug him, reassure him that everything was okay and it wasn't. She... needed to get her head back to where it's supposed to be, and not where it was. ]

[eatsfire]

["Go away..."

The words echo in his head a few times, each time making more of what felt like an actual wound inside him. Sure, she'd told him to go away and leave her alone before, but never... never like this. Never so seriously, as if she really doesn't want him around at all.

Mostly what he wants to do, what he's so tempted to do because it's his nature, is to stomp his foot. Cross his arms and shake his head. Deny the request, the order, whatever. No way is he leaving when she's upset! However... it isn't so easy to do, suddenly, as the words echo once more.

It hurts. But if it's for the best, if she'll get better and stop being so upset and smile again...

Natsu straightens up, and tries to keep his voice light]

Alright. If that's what you want, I ain't gonna keep bothering you.

[And he forces himself to turn around, heading toward the door]

M-my heart

[celestial_wizard]

[ She was in fact, expecting him to refuse. To stomp his foot to be juvenile to be Natsu.

Even though she told him to go away, she wanted to take the words back. She wanted to say she didn't mean it, that she was just upset and confused, and... and she was being STUPID. But she doesn't say any of those things. She doesn't move, doesn't even so much as breathe because it felt like she had clutched her heart and was squeezing it, wondering why it wasn't popping.

What are you doing Lucy?... he's your best friend. It ... it wasn't his fault. Apologize already! Say something! ]

...

[ Continued silence, though tears nearly prick her eyes at the response. It... bothered him that little? They... were still friends weren't they? He could just walk away? .... ....because she told him to go. Lucy, stop him.

She hears him turn and walk towards the door, and she turns slowly, but she can't speak. It's too hard to see him walk away. Natsu ... I'm sorry. Please don't go. How hard was it to say that? Just... say his name. Even that would be enough.

But she can't. The words won't come. ]

this hurts!!!

[eatsfire]

[It's so hard to fight that instinct, to want to just yell and act like a child because it's easier, but he doesn't think it's the same for Lucy, and so he stops himself. She'll get back to being her normal self on her own, he tries to convince himself.

He slows once he's in the doorway, coming to a halt. It takes a few moments - and in that time one hand rises to touch the chain and pendant around his neck - but he turns toward her again eventually, hand still raised.

Natsu's gaze is lowered but comes up when he speaks]

Hope you feel better soon, Luce. I'll be around when you... when... [He isn't entirely sure what to say, and so he trails off, and shrugs, but the expression on his face, visible to her before he turns away yet again, is confused. Frustrated.

Pained.

And then he turns that final time and leaves the room]