Why do I have to be difficult?! I don't know, maybe because I had to watch my own teacher -- who was like a father to me -- die because I wasn't there to help? Maybe because a ton of my friends have already been killed or brainwashed because I still wasn't there to help?! Maybe because all of you are so fucking stupid that you don't know how to take help when you need it?! Maybe it was one of those things, who knows! Just a wild guess!

[but she stops, breathing hard]

What part of "we're friends" do you not understand? Friends watch each other's backs! They help each other out! And they don't go off to do something dangerous out of some misguided notion that they don't have anything to lose!