When she started holding it in...Jane knew the exact moment. She lowered her gaze to her lap.
"I guess...before we started the game," She said, "I was on my Dad's computer, and Roxy-"
Oh, she did not like where this was going already. This whole mess wasn't anyone's fault but her own, and now she was dragging Roxy into it? But it's how things went, and there was no point in lying or avoiding it, not when Dirk certainly wouldn't take silence for an answer. Jane swallowed, and began again.
"Roxy said I should...tell Jake how I felt about him. That you were going to make your move, and I might never have a chance. So I tried, and - and I couldn't even tell him the truth even when he asked me outright. All I could do was dig myself into a deeper hole, and hate myself for it. And maybe I hated him a little bit for being so dense, but that's my fault too."
To think about how humiliating it had been that day, as she had ground her teeth and berated herself for being an absolute moron, made her hurt inside, but this had definitely been where it all started. None of this had ever crossed her mind before then - and she was trying so hard not to yell.
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"I guess...before we started the game," She said, "I was on my Dad's computer, and Roxy-"
Oh, she did not like where this was going already. This whole mess wasn't anyone's fault but her own, and now she was dragging Roxy into it? But it's how things went, and there was no point in lying or avoiding it, not when Dirk certainly wouldn't take silence for an answer. Jane swallowed, and began again.
"Roxy said I should...tell Jake how I felt about him. That you were going to make your move, and I might never have a chance. So I tried, and - and I couldn't even tell him the truth even when he asked me outright. All I could do was dig myself into a deeper hole, and hate myself for it. And maybe I hated him a little bit for being so dense, but that's my fault too."
To think about how humiliating it had been that day, as she had ground her teeth and berated herself for being an absolute moron, made her hurt inside, but this had definitely been where it all started. None of this had ever crossed her mind before then - and she was trying so hard not to yell.