I've been here thrice. It never gets better. I didn't have Nymeria with me the first. I found her in there. Jon had gone. And you. I thought I could find you. [ she makes a moue. ] She found me.
The second time Mother let me because Zelos promised to look after me. Nymeria was unhappy the entire time. I didn't know why it felt so awful. People kept telling me I had magic, but I don't. [ even now, she refuses it. what she does, that's not magic. it doesn't feel like magic. it feels meant to be. like finishing a puzzle she did not know she had begun. ] It's different. I dream I'm a wolf and it's really happening. Like she's me.
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I've been here thrice. It never gets better. I didn't have Nymeria with me the first. I found her in there. Jon had gone. And you. I thought I could find you. [ she makes a moue. ] She found me.
The second time Mother let me because Zelos promised to look after me. Nymeria was unhappy the entire time. I didn't know why it felt so awful. People kept telling me I had magic, but I don't. [ even now, she refuses it. what she does, that's not magic. it doesn't feel like magic. it feels meant to be. like finishing a puzzle she did not know she had begun. ] It's different. I dream I'm a wolf and it's really happening. Like she's me.