Simon bunched his hands into fists, then spread them out in his lap, staring down at them. The hands that had performed many a delicate surgery. The hands that had held onto River many a time. The hands that had caressed his girlfriend's body when they...

No. It was still too much.

"I have no choice, do I? As much as I want to give up, it's not like I want to... ...I can't go with the other option. And I know that I need to use this intelligence and skill I was blessed with for the benefit of others. Live for others."