You can't change your bloodline. It's stupid to even try.

[not_mafia]

Who: Tsuna and you!
What: The nightmares of the next vongola boss...
When: The nightmare plot
Where: The realm of nightmares
Rating: nightmare The first section may and probably will escalate to R (it pretty much starts out at at least T anyway); the other two sections are PG-13.

[From a boy like Tsuna, you wouldn't imagine the nightmares to be as hellish as other resident's were. To some extent, this is true; however, his nightmare does not revolve around petty fears. These nightmares are not littered by events of the past, but are shaped by apprehension for the future. The nightmares have differing situations, but there is one feeling that rings strongly through them all.

Helplessness.]

Helpless | Worthless | Hopeless

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HOPELESS

[not_mafia]

[There's darkness surrounding you on all sides. There's an overwhelming feeling of distress, of desperation. You're watching Tsuna from behind, as he speaks-- more like pleads, begs-- as he speaks to an older man.]

Sawada Tsunayoshi. It is finally time for you to take your place as the tenth boss of the Vongola family.

[Tsuna responds stubbornly, swinging his arm out angrily.] I told you already! I don't want to be the boss!

[And the man replies calmly.] The choice is not yours to make. You are the last heir.

[Tsuna's voice rises, and is laced with desperation.] I don't care! I want to live a normal life! A life where me, and my friends can all live in peace. [Nearly a scream:] A life where the people I love aren't in danger because of who I am!

Idiot. Quit running away.

[As Tsuna turns, the older man disappears, and in another spot, there's a small baby wearing a suit. There's a stern expression on his face, from what you can see, but his eyes are shadowed.

Tsuna, becoming more upset, speaks to him.]

Reborn! Isn't there anything I can do? Anything you can do? A..anything...

[His parting words as he disappears are harsh.] Don't be such a coward.

[And he's gone. Tsuna falls to his knees and hands. Even though he's a bit away from you, his strained words, wobbly from holding back tears, can be heard clearly.]

I just want to live a normal life... Is that really so bad?

[And the tears begin to fall. You can finally move... so what will you do?]

[persequor]

[ Arya is with the baby on this. ]

You're an idiot.

[not_mafia]

[His breath hitches a little at the voice, and he looks over and sees Arya. He looks pretty pathetic with the streaks down his face.

Guilt written on his face, he turns away again. A soft, choked sob escapes him. His voice is a whisper.]

I know.

[persequor]

[ Arya walks up to him and seizes him painfully by the ears. ]

[not_mafia]

[He yelps, more tears rolling down his face.]

Ow! Ow ow ow ow!

[persequor]

Stop crying!

[not_mafia]

[He finally tears away from her, crabwalking a couple steps back as he stares at Arya. He's not sobbing anymore, at least, but his eyes are full of vulnerability and fear.]

[persequor]

[ Her expression only hardens. ]

Get up!

[not_mafia]

[He winces at the words, and bows his head.]

I'm not strong enough.

I'm sorry.

[persequor]

[ She pulls at him. ]

Get up, you idiot!

[not_mafia]

[He doesn't understand Arya's insistence. Didn't she say she had no sympathy for cravens-- for cowards? Because that's what he was, through and through.

He's not ready. He'll never be ready.]

Stop!

[persequor]

[ Her foot connects with his side. ]

Get off the floor!

[not_mafia]

Augh!

[And he falls on his side. He doesn't bother trying to get up.]

[ino]

[of course she's rushing to Tsuna's side as soon as she can! and putting a hand on his back] Tsuna ... !

[not_mafia]

[Tsuna startles a bit at the touch, then looks back to see who it is.

He stares at Ino for a second with a tear-streaked face.

And then he throws himself against her, wrapping his arms tightly around her back, gripping the cloth tightly with white-knuckled, shaking fists.

In between sobs, he whispers out:]

Please help me, Ino. Please... get me out of this.

[ino]

[she kind of stares at the place where the older man and the baby were standing before, and then looks back to him. she doesn't understand the mafia, or most of the position he's in]

We'll figure something out. [she sounds certain of that, at least, though she has no idea what that something will be]

[not_mafia]

[Tsuna's hands don't stop trembling, and he sinks into her a little further. The hopelessness is so overwhelming, it's like you can barely move.

Like you're trapped.

Hey, when that cage appear around the both of you, anyway?]

[ino]

[WELL SHIT. she's moving to hold Tsuna upright, pulling a knife with the other hand with all the willpower she's got. She doubts a knife will do anything -- in fact, she's sure it won't -- but it gives her a defense, however shitty]

Come on. We've got a more pressing problem, here.

[not_mafia]

[Tsuna doesn't look up, doesn't move from his spot. A shuddery breath escapes him.]

There's no way out.

[The cage is, very slowly, shrinking. It's hard to tell with one look, but if you pay enough attention for a few seconds, you can see the bars inching their way closer.]

[ino]

[frustrated] Tsuna -- !!

[yes, she can definitely see that the cage is shrinking. which is why there's now some urgency to her voice] There has to be something -- ! [but she's not really sure of that, now that she thinks about it]

[not_mafia]

[He slowly draws away from Ino, head bowed now.]

No. There isn't. I can't get away. I can't, I can't.

[The shrinking seems to accelerate. Those bars are getting too close for comfort...]

[ino]

[she looks around, panicked ... and clenches her fists at her side for a moment, before ... yep, she's slapping him across the face]

Tsuna! Get yourself together, dammit!

[not_mafia]

[He yelps, and the cage literally comes to a grinding halt, the metal creaking sharply. A hand comes up and touches his face, and he stares at Ino, wide-eyed, hand shaking.

He knew he deserved it. From other people, he would expect the hit. Arya, Zelos, Reborn.

Not from Ino.

The cage shrinks again, but this time, nearly too fast to even perceive. It goes through Ino like air, and encompasses only Tsuna, who slowly bows his head, dropping his hand.

A single tear drops from his face.]

[ino]

[oh, shit. OH SHIT. that was not what was supposed to happen. he was supposed to stand up and pull himself together.

she's running towards the cage, now, sticking her hand through the bars to try and grab him]

Tsuna--! Shit!

[not_mafia]

[Try as she might, no matter how hard she strains or stretches, she's just a finger's breadth away from Tsuna.

Tsuna doesn't look up.]

I see. That's how you feel, then.

[The voice doesn't shake at all. It's quiet... resolved.]

I understand. Everyone else feels like that as well.